help me get my life back on track?
hey guys i have no idea what i;m doing with my life besides wasting time. i’m 22 years old and up to this point have been a failure to stand on my own feet in this world. Man why is it so hard to make it in this world now a days! anyways everything Ive done up to this point has been a let down and i cant seem to find anything that i want to do.. or be in life. 4 years ago i graduated high school and i enrolled into a community college for fire science.. i thought i wanted to be a fire fighter.. well a qrt way though the semester i dropped out like a dumb ass. I was all about friends and parties and school was the last thing on my mind. Clearly i did not have the mature mind set to take college serious. I had a shitty part time job at wal-mart for about a year until i started working with a Contractor doing Roofing,siding ,and other carpentry work. The money was good for me at the time but that did not last long when the economy hit the shitter. Realistically i knew that type of work was not going to last for ever especially living in Rhode Island … god this place is awful the unemployment rate is sky high and the state is so small there just isn’t enough jobs for people.So last year i decided i wanted to join the military. i decided i wanted to join the air force as active. And maybe i would figure out what i really wanted to do afterwards. Well my dream was coming true i enlisted into the air force and was sworn in jan 28 2010. i really felt good about myself for once in life.. i really did. but i recieved bad news about 10 months into my (DeP) delayed entry process. i Found out that i would not make it into the air force. they told me that the air force is flooded with recruits and that they are overmaned so finding a job with the AF is really hard. In the mean time i had no work i was unemployed.. i was banking on joining the AF .. so in my spear time i was getting in good shape and showing up to my once a month dep meetings. So now here is my situation my girl friend left me because im a broke loser and i ended up moving back at my parents house with nothing but boxes of my stuff. now i gotta find a job. and ive filled out about 20 applications still nothing and its gotta be close by because i dont have a car. man ive hit rock bottom and all i want is a chance to prove myself i am a good hard worker. Now im really considering joining the marines or the army infantry..because i know ill get it easy. i really am sick of life but im not suicidal im just lost for options.
